Heart palpitations 💓

Every little thing is making me freak out lately. I have an important date coming up and I’ve been effectively preparing for it. Despite this, I have this overhanging dreadful feeling that I know won’t go away until after it’s over.

Only 15 more days…

Although I am confident in a positive outcome, I am getting bogged down by the “what-ifs?” I am studying, making lists, gathering my documents, and speaking with everyone necessary. So why am I so scared?

I’m scared of everything all the time. And when I’m worried about something, I misbehave and lash out at everyone and admissions of guilt are still not as good as being patient and kind.

I want to be better but I don’t know how. I feel scared and useless and the activities that made me feel better aren’t cutting it at the moment.

Praying to be good. Wish me luck? ✨

(;ŏ﹏ŏ)

1 Comment

  1. It gets like that sometime, for everyone. Perhaps try to find something soothing to do that doesn’t matter at all. I use times like this to just play games on my phone. They don’t matter and it gives me a brief respite from worry over what I can’t fix at the moment. It’s calming to me. But there are other things you can do, too. Sounds like you need to find a way to set things aside for a bit. Also, try to think ahead about how you’ll feel having to apologize, AGAIN; might serve as a reminder to be gentle to others, especially when you’re on edge.

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