Every little thing is making me freak out lately. I have an important date coming up and I’ve been effectively preparing for it. Despite this, I have this overhanging dreadful feeling that I know won’t go away until after it’s over.
Only 15 more days…
Although I am confident in a positive outcome, I am getting bogged down by the “what-ifs?” I am studying, making lists, gathering my documents, and speaking with everyone necessary. So why am I so scared?
I’m scared of everything all the time. And when I’m worried about something, I misbehave and lash out at everyone and admissions of guilt are still not as good as being patient and kind.
I want to be better but I don’t know how. I feel scared and useless and the activities that made me feel better aren’t cutting it at the moment.
Praying to be good. Wish me luck? ✨